I love you and you love me… and when I see you and you ask me out I’ll be so happy.
I’m making you wait to ask me in person in a few weeks because I want to see you blush, but I’ll blush too so don’t worry.
I’m scared… I am terrified.
Feeling this way makes me feel so exposed.
What if you get sick of me?
I can be pretty insecure btw.
It’s the result of a lifetime of being told I’m ugly, not good enough etc.
So when you tell me I’m amazing, breath taking etc. and I say I don’t believe you, please do not take it personal.
Now the neggy voice in my head is telling me I am not good enough for you.
You make me vulnerable… which is scary because I am usually so guarded and tough.
I’ve been hurt before and I’ve hurt people before.
I’ve hurt guys because they’ve fallen for me when I’ve felt nothing…
I feel so much for you that it hurts so don’t worry, I won’t hurt you.
I am weird, annoying, silly and not that great.
I’m worried you’ll figure this out pretty soon.
Please hold me and make me realise my fears are stupid?
Love…me.
